I love beautiful things. I told my friend Jane, after talking about a handsome man, for me, looking at a man is like looking at anything beautiful. I like looking at my garden, appreciating the beauty in the flowers , the birds. I like the sounds and smells of them. I like looking at everything, old cars, beautiful homes, you name it. What I think is beautiful doesn't always impress other people. I find Tom Bergeron irresistible, and I am not sure exactly why that is, other than he makes me laugh, he makes these funny silly faces.
There is not a litmus test for beauty. Beauty is a million little things!
While raising my daughter, I wanted to be sure that she felt beautiful. She really is. But I also know how hard it is for women to accept their own beauty, in whatever form it lies. From the time she was a tot, I have told her how beautiful she was, and I meant every word. She has these amazing blue eyes, framed by beautiful dark lashes. She has a little dimple when she smiles, just like her daddy. As she has grown, she has taken my breath away with the sheer gorgeousness of her, her laugh, her physical beauty, her intelligence, humor, talent and strength..
It is really hard for me to watch her struggle with her self image now. To me, she is stunning, yet she compares herself to other girls she can never, and shouldn't ever want to be. I was that way when I was her age, and for much longer. I thought that beauty in a girl was a tiny frame, big breasts, perfect skin. Even after I met Chris, my very own freckle faced beauty, I spent too many of our married years wondering when he would realize he made a big mistake. I just didn't see what he did.
The past three years working with a building full of wonderful women has helped me accept the
beauty that is in me. I used to think working with so many women would
be horrible, that I would find that I was inferior, that they would look at me with the same eyes that I saw myself. An amazing thing
happened. I met all of these women, and learned that we had so
much in common! The woman I thought was spectacularly beautiful or
amazingly talented or kind, they were generous with their compliments, and the
sharing of what it means to be a woman, a wife, a mother. The ones I thought were the most stunning shared the same insecurities that I had.
I am going on now, like I do when I start talking. But I think what I want to say, if you are a mother, remember that your child looks at you as the most beautiful thing in the world. Don't berate yourself. Your child will listen, and she will take that to heart. When she is old enough, she will look at herself and remember your self criticism and find herself wanting.
If you are a dad, or brother, or just friend, remember to appreciate out loud all the things you find beautiful in a woman, not just the physical.. Your daughter, sister , friend hears that and judges herself by your words too.
I had a substitute teacher tell me this year that my smile lit up the whole room. She went on about it for a while, and even though I was embarrassed, I floated on cloud nine for the rest of the day. I will never be petite, I'm never going to be Angelina Jolie. But, I am beautiful. And my sweet baby girl, you are too.
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